hold me tight
and we will run together
in search of the dream
the dream that we shared
just YOU and ME*
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
navigate; right*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
12/31/2006
Sunday, December 31, 2006
recentli i've been doubtin our relationship . i'm tinkin if we shld b together .it may b u or mii as the cause . it might b ur mood swings or ur attitude towards mii tatz makin tink tat wae or mii myself nt undrstandin u very well or even had a own expectation tat i myself had set fer u tatz too high n thus resultin in a great disappointment when stuff did nt turn out the way i want it to b . or it mayb b tat i've nt understand u tat well enuff or itmayb even b wat u hav said in the first diary entry tatz makin me doubt us even more . i'm always tinkin if i'm the 1 causin u the mood swings n attitude or is she the 1 and tinkin of tis sometimes make mii jealous of her as well as angry wif u , myself n her . tinkin of y is she able to stay in u fer so long , n wat i do doesnt seems to b able to take over her place in u n thus hatin myself even more n sometimes tink of stuff which i shld nt tink of doin or even tink . bt it may b the other reason of mii nt understandin u well enuff n didnt tink frm ur point of view or mayb nt lovin u enuff . bt i tink tat i've done my best of wat i could n if tinks is to remain the same den i dunno watz goin to happen nxt liaoz . n mayb afterall its all my wishful tinkin of wat may happen or end fer us . i jux hope to stay together for as long as we can b n continue to fill up each other's life n heart wif ourselves and hav a happy endin fer the both of us . n in aniwae i still hav to sae thanx fer enterin my life n makin it interestin n filled wif different feelins n colours to my life which i had nev had b4 and i jux wish to hav u there never leavin mii ... te amo <3
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
12/16/2006
Saturday, December 16, 2006
tinks jux dun seem to b the same as b4 le . its jux after a few daes of hols n i jux dunno wat happenin le .full of heartaches n keep on cryi tinkin bout everytink which i cant seem to run away frm . i jux hav the feel tat we seems to b driftin further apart. okiez im cryin rite nw i admit cuz i dun noe wat i can do except to cry !!! i m feelin so lost there's no 1 which i can turn to nw to tell bout my prob cuz if i m to do so there will b more probs cumin out way n we will nt b in ani mood to even tok to one another n more stuff to stress about n tat ppl will nt noe or trueli understand . bt wat shld i do ??? i felt lik i m bein suffocated by all these stuff cumin my way n all i feel is tat u r onli there to scream ( or mayb onli a bit louder den usual )at mii !!!!! seriousli i feel hurt . at times i dun even dare to pick up ur cors in case i scream at u which is wat i do not wan or to even cry while tokin to u cuz i noe tat will onli make u more stress . as i said i dun wan to b a burden to u n tat i feel useless n keep on irritatin u instead of bein there to b of some help . i m realli doubtin myself . in ani case if possible give mii some confirmation i seriousli nid it or i tink i wont b able to carry on . i understand tat u r nt in a gd mood due to work n other stuff bt do u tink i m ????? and i tot u will b there to giv mii support n the strength to carry on bt it didnt turn out to b so . n to b truthful i m quite disappointed with the outcome. jux truely hope tat everytink will turn out fine bahx . byex . msg mii if u nid anitink or if u hav read tis !!!
